Bad Day

I'm not doing well today. I'm due to take my next-to-last Paxil tomorrow morning...if I can make it that long. I've been depressed lately and I'm very short-tempered today. I get mad if someone just looks at me the wrong way. Reading blogs is mostly infuriating anymore. I need to find something else to do while staying off my feet. It's hard for me to do things like read a book or watch a movie because I have the attention span of a gnat right now.

Why do I need to stay off my feet? Because my feet, especially my right foot, have been acting up really badly lately and I'm in a lot of pain. If I can stay off my feet, I'm okay. But I am frustrated because I need to do things. I want to start exercising. I want to make some soap and experiment with making some other bath things. But I can't because I can't bear to stand or walk for too long. I have an appointment with a foot doctor late next week (which was the soonest I could manage) because I can't stand this anymore.

I really don't think I should completely stop taking Paxil with my last pill on May 1. I had a reader warn me about this and I think he was right. I have one more refill and I may need to continue weaning down and maybe do it differently. I need to go to that Paxil forum and ask for some advice, but I just plain haven't felt like it. I'm really not in the mood to have to explain all this crap to a bunch of people I don't know and then probably get all kinds of conflicting advice. I'm low on patience right now.

I don't know what to do. Pray for me if you are so inclined.

Update: I'm feeling calmer now, although it's a washed-out, exhausted calm. And I went ahead and took the yellow pill. Yeah, I will definitely get that one more refill...I'm just not ready to stop taking them completely yet. I need to wean down a while longer. When I feel up to it, I'll go to that forum and ask some questions.